Whoa!
I completely forgot I had this blog! Hahahha.
It's embarrassing to read my old posts, so I'll just pretend those posts are not there.

So, let's do a quick update on my life, shall we?

I'm still alive, still single, still living in the same place as 6 years ago, and still working at Veritrans. Nothing much has changed. But don't get me wrong, a lot of interesting and exciting things has happened along the way.

From a girl who has not been out of her hometown until college, now I've visited most of Jakarta area, Bandung, Sumatera (Medan), Bali, Gili, and Lombok. Looking forward to go to Solo sometimes in this year and annual Bali trip. I envy people who has done much more trips than me, esp the solo traveller. I wonder how they do it. How they can spare the time to do that, the money, and the courage. I always want to visit Yogya, Ujung Kulon, Belitong, Pulau Komodo, Derawan, etc etc etc. But I never had the courage to do it alone. I read a lot of solo traveller has done that, even the girls! But, yeah.. I can give you a ton of reasons why I don't but we all know it's all just excuses that I don't ever really do something to do it. Someone said, that if it means a lot to you, you'll find a way to do that and won't be depend on other people. 
Maybe my desire to travel is not as big as my desire to lay on my bed and play with my cats? Maybe.

But what matter the most is, I'm happy! Some people might say I'm lazy, wasting my youth or just not living my life to the fullest. But hey, who are they to judge me? Why should I care when I'm happy with my current life?

Why it is so embarrassing to read my old posts is because I saw myself then was a super over-thinking person. Not that I got depressed back then. But it's just I saw how I really over think stuffs. I don't know when, at what point in my life, that now i think I've been better. I take things easy. i don't overthink that much.

Or, really?

Hahahha. I don't know. Maybe in some things that are really personal, i still do. But for general things, I can let go easier.

So now, i don't care much of what people say. Esp the people who barely know me. As long as I'm happy, then I'm good.

In this fckn hard and crazy life, I'm lucky enough to be able to say that.

Gonna start to post again in this blog. Just realized (again) that writing in blog is pretty fun. Even tho I said this in every post, hope this time I can really make it. So, see you later, errr blogspot?

Ciao!

'ssup!

It's been a while since I posted something in here. Not that I don't have anything to write, but I just can't find the right time. As you can see in my blog title, this blog is dedicated to record my midnight rattle. But since I've got a job, I don't do stay awake till the sun comes anymore hehe.

Hmm a job? Yes, Thank God I got one. I'm very lucky to get a job directly before I graduate. Now I'm working in Veritrans Indonesia, an online payment gateway company. Just open the link if you want to know further, but basically we helps companies who do online business to be able to receive payment from every payment method in Indonesia such as credit card and internet banking (BCA KlikPay, CIMB Clicks, etc). This is a Tech Startup in Jakarta, my office is in Midplaza 2 Building. Actually I've been working here since July 2012 as an intern. So now I just change my status to a full time worker :D


Tech Startup, sounds very geeky right? Indeed, I work with a lot of geeks who do coding, coding, and coding. Is it boring? Not at all! The geeks turns out very fun and brilliant at the same time. Moreover, they are still very young. For me, a person who never involves in this kind of high tech thingy, it is very exciting! I learn a lot of new things. And the best part is, when you work at a startup, you learn to build a business from the beginning. So much different with a job in a big companies, where they already have the business plan settled and you already know the SOP, business flow, etc. In a startup, you'll see how a startup still building hypothesis for their business and do a lot of experiments to prove it. You'll see how dynamic the company must be to adjust and tuning the "engine" to match with the industry. How they're still do research on their product, customers, and market. If you have a high entrepreneurial spirit (which I don't :p), you'll love it more. My boss, Ryu Kawano said, "Join a Startup to Learn How to Start One". And yes, by working in here, I learn how hard is it to build a business from zero and what problems might appears in a business. 

Other than that, I can go to work with jeans, shirt, and sandal everyday! No suit and tie for men! No formal business attire! You have no idea how much I love this culture in a company! It makes me more relax and comfortable at work, so I never be a person who always looking at my watch because I want to go home immediately. No, I love staying at the office. I stay till late not because I was forced to do so, but because I want to. And my working hour is flexible!

But it's not all nice. The thing with working in eCommerce industry is, you work 24/7. Sometimes I'm working from home on weekend or in a middle of a night. And also, as I mention that Startup still build their business, we face a lot of uncertainty. But that's what a Starup is. As Eric Ries wrote in a very awesome book "Lean Startup", he said that his definition of Starup is "A human institution designed to create something new under conditions of extreme uncertainty".

Wherever you work, there will always be the positive and negative part. It's all back to you to how to take it. How about me? I love my job. I never complaining for working extra hour, even on the weekend. I'm very thankful to be a part of this team. I hope you'll find a workplace which can make you feel the same way as I do :D

“Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.” ― Confucius.

"It's not about the money, money, moneyWe don't need your money, money, moneyWe just wanna make the world dance,Forget about the price tag"

In this kind of world, with the life you're living, is it even possible for us to forget about the price tag?
This life isn't always about money---but most of the time it is.
Money can't buy happiness---but money can afford happiness.
Love is all we need---makan tuh cinta.

Seriously, I just try not to be naive. I'm not materialistic, I'm realistic.
These days, money isn't just an object that generally accepted for payment. Money is more than that. Money is your attribute. Money is the way you measure a life. Money is a way to live a life. Money is a destination.

But like people said, life isn't always about money (even though most of the time it is). There are some moments, when you know exactly, it's really not about the money. The moment you can appreciate and thankful of your life for what you have, and forget about the money for a while. The moment you spent by laughter with your family, friends, or your loved ones. The moment you feel so happy without thinking about the money. And for me, that's not much. That kind of happiness, when life is like a fairytale, and you're just so happy. Since it's not happens all the time, try to cherish the moment while it last.

Other than that, just face the truth that life will be about the money, money, money.

Sometimes, people who choose to be a single fighter, not always because they're lonely or can't trust anybody else. Sometimes, it because they have good things that they want to keep so bad. Things that they wished to stay as it is, and they are afraid that their war might interfere and changes everything that they already have.

There are four main functions of management, and yes, it's written as the title of this post. But no, I'm not gonna explain it or talk about management in business at all. Even though I'm a management student, still I need to learn more if I ever gonna write about that. Business, management, strategic management, and these kind of stuffs are sooo complicated. Trust me, it's not as simple as what you read in book or in your class. Make a business is one thing, but managing a business is other thing. And before I'm planning to have a business on my own, I'm more concern to implement the management function to my personal life first.
I think I haven't been a good manager for myself, I haven't been able to manage my life well, so how can I manage other things (ex. business if I'm going to be an entrepreneur, or people if I'm going to be an employee and of course one day be a leader) ?
You can't just say "let it flow" to everything. Like that quote in my previous post, there are some parts in this life that needs our full attention and concentrated effort. But since we can't really know which one, so we have to prepare for every possibilities.
Before this, I never really thought about my life that much. I was more like a just-let-it-flow person. But since I started to hanging out with uccil, my friend, frankly I started to change. She is kind of people who manages her life well. She plans every thing that she needs to do everyday, she makes budget and writes her expenses everyday, etc. And I don't remember since when, I started to do those kind of things too. I started to plan for tomorrow before I go to sleep. And first I only think about that in my mind, but then I really started to write things that I need to do on the next day before I go to sleep everyday. And now I even make plans, for short term, like what am I going to do tomorrow, this weekend, and make targets on every task that needs to be done. Not really by myself actually, she helps me, a lot. Especially when I was too messed up in this skripsi thingy, she helped me to manage my time, made targets, etc. And it feels really good, you know? Having a plan everyday makes me more focus and productive. It's not like I have a schedule of what I need to do from hour to hour, no no no. But I know what I need to do today and which one that needs to be done today, just the big picture. Planning your life won't make your life boring. I still let some spontaneous things or events happened, but with the plans I've made, I can prioritize things and be more responsible to myself. If I already have plan to do my thesis on 1 p.m-5 p.m, but suddenly my friend ask me to go and hang out, then I know that I need to wake up early to do my thesis, so I can go with my friend and still I can finished my task. You can't do the "work hard, play hard" thing if you don't have a plan of your life, you'll end up just do the "work hard" part or, mostly, the "play hard part". Been there, done that.
Planning, is the easiest part though. Leading, or directing myself to follow the plan everyday is like........huuffft. Basically I'm a super-lazy person, so it takes a billion tons of effort to be discipline with my own plan. There are some days that I let myself ruining the plan. Sometimes I chose to loosen up, and that's fine, as long as I can be responsible for that ruined day. That part, I do the "organizing". I organize which part of my plan that I can skip, or postpone, and which one that needs to be done immediately. This one is tricky, a lot of external factor can influence the decision I made. In this part, I really need to prioritizing every thing, so the plan will goes well.
And last but not least, "controlling". In this part, I checked of what I've done and compare with the targets I had. I do the measurement. I do the review. Make some corrections if necessary, or give a little reward for myself if everything went well.

Sounds good, right?
The thing is, I'm stuck with the "planning" part, most of the time. Yeah you know, maybe this sounds like an excuse, but this is a big step for me. From the lazy-me, now trying to be the better me. It needs time. I hope, I can really implement all of this step completely, soon.

Ciao!

Akhirnya! Skripsi sudah beres! Sidang sudah beres!
Belum officially lulus sih, masih ada beberapa revisi dan urusan administrasi, tapi tetep aja udah lulus! hahahaa.
Senengnya tuh ya, kayaa.... kaya pertama kali keteriima di kampus ini.
Baca hasil pengumuman simak UI, tengah malem, keterimaa di FEUI jurusan manajemen.
Dan sekarang, denger kata "selamat anda dinyatakan lulus" pas sidang.
Luar biasa senengnya. The hard work, sleepless nights, and every rupiah spent, are worth it.

Time flies ya, cepet banget. Gue yakin bukan cuma gue yang ngerasa kaya gini. Perasaan kemarin masih jadi maba yang masih sibuk ngerangkum tugas, tiba2 udah ngerjain skripsi, tiba2 udah lulus dan masuk kehidupan nyata buat kerja.
Akhirnya beres sudah cita-cita akademis, lalu sekarang saatnya ngejar cita-cita yang lebih tinggi lagi. Selalu kaya gitu, ga pernah ada kata beres dan puas emang ya buat manusia. Tapi yaa, that's what keeps our life interesting kan.

Masuk kerja lagi, kali ini full time, tantangan terbesar bagi gue adalah........... bangun pagi.
bener deh susah banget, entah sejak kapan gue jadi kebo begini. hmm sejak insomnia sih. harus beli jam weker yang bunyinya annoying banget demi bisa bangun pagi kalo gini ceritanya sih. pasti bisa kan? pasti lah, harus!

Mari menikmati weekend terakhir untuk santai-santai dan ngerjain revisi. And be prepared for the next chapter of my life!

Ciao!